twenty-two.

food:

1 apple w/ sweetener and cinnamon [93] [1pm]

1 sugar-free popsicle [44] [1:30pm]

1 cheese sandwich [320] [2:30pm]

drinks:

2 peppermint teas w/ sweetener [12]

5 cups ice water [0]

other:

10 cigarettes

harm:

None. 

I fucked up last night, only one, on my arm.

To prevent more, I drew cats all over my arm.

None of them are infected so far. The deep one is healing well. It hasn't closed yet, I think it may take two weeks to close probably, but it doesn't look like it's tearing deeper.

notes:

I'm so tempted to not eat anything else for the rest of the day.

I took 14 extra strength laxatives [max dose is 3] last night so I have a giant stomach ache. :c I really should stop taking them all together, they don't actually get rid of food and all they do is hurt me. 

I really want to just give up. I really do. Honestly, the only reason I'm still doing this is Tiger. I said I'd do anything for her, so I'm doing this. 

Just, aekaweajkehajkeahwejkawea.

I'm in such a weird mood. I'm really hyper but I'm not happy.