It seems that all my time has worn thin these days.
I go to sleep too late. I wake up too late. I call friends back too late, turn in assignments just an hour or two past due date --- but still late.
I'm still sick.
Mom and I looked at old pictures today. From four years ago, five years ago, six.
When I was little I had white-blonde hair and little matchstick legs and I drew in color. Now, my hair is dingy (not quite blonde, not quite brunnette, just dingy.) and my legs are tree trunk thick.
When I was little I had a flatchest and never had to worry about bras, or creepy old men looking at what's in my bras.
I never had to worry about what I ate or whether or not I would sleep that night.
I miss being a little girl with white-blonde hair and matchstick legs.
Maybe I can get to 98 pounds and dye my hair and be a little girl again.
I ate 954 calories today. It's the most I've eaten in a non-binge/purge in months.
3,724 leg lifts = 1117.2 calories burned.
BMR - 1,590.7
=1,753.9 deficit
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