crash&burn.

Breakfast- 1/2 cup V8 Splash Berry Blend, 1/2 cup water = 35
Lunch- 1/2 cup oatmeal w/ 1/2 tsp Sweet N' Low, 1/2 cup Gatorade Rain = 179
Dinner- tba.
Other- A few bites of corn [partially purged], peanut butter sandwich [FUCK. about to purge.], 3 cups water = 450 [purged, 100 retained?]
Harm- GODDAMN IT.
I haven't cut here in years and now here I am hacking on my wrists like some suicidal idiot.
I really wanted to go deeper. I was trying to tell myself that any deeper and I'd cut my veins and I was like so? what if i do?
I genuinely did not care if I did and then was like stop that, tiger is waiting for you to get back and talk to her.
Notes- Apparently I don't get to go to school until the start of next year. Great, I fucking start high school in 11th grade. I'm so tired of beingg here. At like, 1am I was talking to my mom and I told her I was sick of her. She started fucking screaaaaaaming that I was ruining everyone's lives, that she was leaving [she grabbed her keys and ran outside], yelling'fuck you' as she ran out the door. I'm like, wtf. I was talking quietly and suddenly she's just screeching and waking my dad up. Then he got up, all super pissed off at me of course.
I just can't handle being here anymore. I'd move out, but my mom took my money because apparently I stole it all. Which is fucking ridiculous. I've NEVER stolen money from anyone. Save for when I was six and I took a quarter from my sister. But I've been saving money for years and she just took it. Apparently I'll get it back, but that's said about everything. Like I'll get to go back to school in a month[said three years ago]. Like I'll get my cellphone back in two weeks [said three months ago]. Like any other fucking promise.
YAY BITTERNESS.