I fucked up. Again.
I feel like such a failure at this. At just being okay.
My normal day three days ago feels like forever again. I was proud of myself, or at least beginning to be beyond all the anxiety. Now I just feel like I'm back right where I was, just hoping for a change instead of having one.
I HATE this. I hate constantly feeling like the worst person on the planet. I hate feeling so ugly. I hate feeling like I can't control my own head. I hate letting people down. I hate that Tiger is going to be back tomorrow and read all this. I'm sorry for not doing better.
i won't let you say goodbye, and i'll be your reason why.
You'll be okay, give it time. :) You will be! You're strong. Don't worry.
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