crash&burn.

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myseld I hate myseld I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself you’re so fucking pathetic they have to put locks on the fucking cupboards. you bitch, you can’t even keep yourself from eating the entire fucking kitchen. that’s how stupid and ugly and worthless you are. worthless beyond fucking belief. you can’t do anything right you’re fat fat fat fat .you can’t even starve yourself right because you’re so needy. your needy fucking mouth, needy for kisses and food and talking about dangerous secrets no one should know shut up shut up shut up. I fucking hate you. how can anyone see anything worth anything in you .you’re so empty so fucking empty and so wrong you are wrong wrong wrong. no matter what you do it will always be wrong you could get the best marks on everything and you’d still be wrong. forever wrong forever and ever and ever and ever. you could be the thinnest girl and you’d still be fa.t you could be the prettiest and you’d still be the ugliest. no matter how hard you pretend at being a person I know you’re still a monster .they can’t see it completely yet but they’re starting to. you’re a monster monster monster inhuman and animalistic and needy and uncontrolled you are a beast. you are nothing to me. I hate you. you know you really fucking suck at everything. you couldn’t even kill yourself right. how the fuck do you fail at killing yourself? so fucking funny. it should’ve been so simple: slash wrists, don.e but you were too scared and fucking called that girl who didn’t even love you and told her and wouldn’t go deep enough. why the fuck did you do that? hahahahahahahahahaha you can’t even kill yourself you can’t even kill yourself you can’t even kill yourself. coward coward failure bitch. you can’t even eat right or sleep right how the hell do you fuck those two basics of existing up? you are broken and no one will ever fix you. I hate hate hate who you are and who you were and who you’ve become. fucking anxiety I’m shaking so bad I’m so cold cold cold and I can’t breathe would if I stop breathing who would save me? I hate I hate I hate I hate I hate. I hate me and I hate you. how did you not fucking notice I was just a little kid how did you not notice.  the nightmares the fear the mood swings the everything. I was stupid then too and you knew it it was my fault because I was stupid. stupid little girl stupid little girl she’s so stupid. stupid little girl yelling at herself to bring tears. stupid little girl ripping her life to pieces just to make it better. hate hate hate hate. And I hate him too I hate him. I didn’t lose weight because he didn’t feed me I lost because I was losing no more fighting lose lose lose. I hate me and you and him. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck no more fuck no more no more stop  fucking thinking I can’t think thinking is bad thinking is dangerous think about anything else I hate I hate I hate I hate I hate I hate. I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate you I hate myself I hate myself I hate so much I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself it’s not this it’s not today it’s everything it’s everything everything everything I hate I hate everything. Leave me the fuck alone I don’t care anymore