Forced.
Meal plans. breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner. Liquids. Juice with every meal, me screaming about it and sitting with my arms crossed for three hours ["I AM NOT DRINKING THAT SHIT."] Dumping juice on the floor. Stuffing peanut butter toast in my bra. Hiding mushy oatmeal in my underwear. Lying. Lielielielie.
youneedtoeatthis. WHY? because. BUTWHY? because. WHATHEFUCKISWRONGWITHYOU.AREYOUSTUPID?IASKEDWHY.
youloseanymoreweightandthey'lltakeyouaway. I DON'T FUCKING CARE. I'D RATHER BE THERE THAN WITH YOU. arianna...
I'm awful.
I want to run away. I want to leave. It's selfish and mean and horrible but I can't do this.
I love you. I wish I could take you away from all of that.
ReplyDeleteIt will be okay. I promise.
Forcing food at you is a bad move on their part. It doesn't help and they should know that.
But please, don't... I don't know. I don't want you to refuse to eat ANYTHING because they're trying to force you to eat everything.
Do you know what I mean? Just because they're spazzing out doesn't mean you have to.
I love you so much. <3 Sososo much. More than anything. Take care, lovely. <3333